Post burnout thoughts

So, third year Med school kicked my a**. No use mincing words. I came out of my 5 weeks at the second hospital for Internal in a mentally and emotionally exhausted place. I was stuck in a thought spiral about getting old and dying, of loosing the people I loved to illnesses like the ones …

The Thirteen Core Commandments

So, a new crop of core clerks (third year clerks) are about to start, or perhaps have started already. And if you're reading this post, you might be one of those clerks making the exciting and scary transition from classroom to hospital.  So, in that vein, from my jaded perspective of a CC4 (passed all …

Wellness

I've been in a funk, lately.  Or at least, that's what I've been calling it. It's a kinder word than 'depression.' Though honestly, I don't think I meet the criteria for depression.  I just...haven't been feeling well. Mentally well, physically well. I find myself one week away from the end of third year, and sometimes …

Dragging on

So, I'm 5 weeks away from being done with core clerkship, and I can't decide if this year was the longest or the shortest of my life. Honestly, I think it might have been both. Because don't get me wrong, this year has been long. Last week I was at the hospital for 85 hours. …

Falling down the clerkship habit hole

So, if it seems that I disappeared down a hole into the dark abyss this last month, it's only because I have. I'm just starting my 5th (out of 8) week of my surgical rotation, and my 2nd week of my general surgery rotation, having already actually completed my ortho surgery rotation...and no, even if …

In which my inactivity on this blog is maybe a metaphor for my life?

So yeah, I had no intention to go dark for a month.  Like, none.  I had posts and ideas planned and then?  Wherein the 'you' gif in this is also me. But yes, we had our last real didactic lecture of our pre-clerkship blocks and exam Monday May 13th and the apathy levels have been …

Three for three and taking the moment

So, as if our last exam I'm officially 3 for 3 on failing exams - 1 failed exam in each of the three phases. Now, the rewrite was the past Thursday, and I passed that, so school wise I'm good, but I did sort of want to post on it - and given that our …

Running down the clock

So, this is the picture that our two school Facebook groups now has as a cover photo: We're 2 month from the end of second year, and we're all running on empty.  I've got an exam this Monday, and while I'm certainly studying, it is incredibly hard to put up any motivation for this exam, …

Jet lag sucks

So, after an unexpected hiatus, I'm back. I honestly had intended to try and blog while I was on my trip, but that just didn't end up happening.  My mother and I found that we ended up back at our hotel each night so exhausted in the best way, that I just didn't have the …

Please be March break already…

So, yeah, I feel like the title might speak for my mood.  The week before last was pretty rough.  We had a 100 plus question exam last Monday, and although it ended up not being as bad as I thought (and I did pass, yay) the week leading up to it was rough.  The burnout …